Why Do I Even Write?

There is something about having a very hectic mind and being able to transfer these crazy thoughts and ideas onto something real.

I was not always into writing. Well, English was always one of my favorite classes in School because I thought it was easy. Math has always been a struggle and still is. Some people love math because there is a formula you must follow and then you know there is always one straight answer. But for me, I don’t like that there is only one answer. Because I have to follow the formula exactly to get that answer. There is no other choice. In writing there  are many different standards and formulas. You can have your standard MLA format or you can have freestyle creative writing. And even when we all follow the same formula, we all have a different outcome because our thoughts are all different. There is no right or wrong answer per se, in writing a piece. Does this tell you a lot about how I view life in general?  But I was not always into writing. It’s something I became interested in not too long ago.

As a child, one of my phases was writing short stories for fun. But like all phases, that surely came to pass and I became interested in other things.

I took Baptism on August 29, 2015. A stormy crazy day but also the most beautiful day of my life. I can’t even describe how wonderful that experience was. Words cannot do it justice. One of my best friends gave me a present on that day and she included a notebook in it that had Bible Verses on the bottom of every page. This notebook would be the literal turning page in my desire to start writing.

This same friend was baptized this past weekend! Along with another one of my really good friends. There is something about seeing another person dedicate their life to Christ that brings so much joy, emotion, and a renewed sense of desire to follow Christ. Am I right?!

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Congrats Girls! ❤

People talk about the trials that happen either before, during, or after baptism for most people. I definitely went through some really hard times after baptism. One thing that really helped me during that time was writing in that notebook. I put all my negative emotions in there. And it helped relieve me of the pain and emptiness surrounding my heart.

It’s funny because as soon as my life changed for the better, I stopped writing in that notebook. My last entry was four months ago and I have not felt a need to write in it anymore. I cannot even describe or explain the change of heart the Holy Spirit has done on my heart since taking baptism. Comparing who I was a year ago to now…WOW. And to know that he is not finished yet, he is still working on me.

I used to be so quiet, and I would usually keep to myself. But now I can’t shut up lol. I want to express my thoughts and ideas. I want to make new friends, I want to share experiences. I’m also a communication major so I love to communicate with people in various ways. I’m still a quiet gentle spirit by nature but more outgoing. When I stopped writing in my private notebook, I realized how much I loved to write in general. That notebook helped me reflect personally on my life. It allowed me to see how much I’ve learned and grown as a person. But that was only to benefit myself. I want to help other people, I want to reach out to them and encourage them. I want to use my crazy thoughts for the good of helping others.

My sister is someone who always encourages and pushes me to follow my passions and is someone who loves to empower women. She told me that I should start writing a blog, and I was like hey…I actually have been thinking of starting one.

I have been in a bit of a writers block lately. Was not sure of what to write about. So I thought maybe I would write an article about what inspired me to start writing a blog in the first place.

I don’t have all the answers to life’s problems. I still have things I struggle with. But writing a blog lets me be creative, spill my ideas, add encouragement, express my faith, learn new things, and be more transparent as a person.

Hopefully next week I am inspired to write something new.

Much love,

Angie ❤