Rough Start

Hasn’t been even a full two weeks into the new year and I have already deleted or blocked 4 people on social media, jeez.

Hello beautiful people!

Happy new year! I am so late in writing this article. I had hoped to write this at the true beginning of the year but getting readjusted to school and work has been tough and overwhelming. I write myself a bunch of to-do lists but I still manage to forget to do two things a day and only remember when I’m finally laying in bed. I write notes on my phone and in my school journals but I definitely need to get more organized.I have also had this ongoing headache which I do not know why so I’m trying to drink more water. Jeez, could I complain anymore? I apologize. I hope your new year is going well!

Obviously, we know that just because its a new year doesn’t mean that all of a sudden you need to completely change as a person or whatever. You can start making positive changes whenever! But there is still something great about a fresh new year where you can reflect on the past year and then analyze what you want to work on and set some goals!

You might be wondering why I had to delete people from social media and you may think its petty. But why have someone there looking at your life and what you’re doing if they don’t support you? You should have people that support your life and your work. Social media is an extension of you as a person whether you want it to be or not. If someone is disrespectful to you in real life and cannot be trusted then you don’t need that negativity in “real life” or online. Also, I don’t need to see posts of people that will bring me down. Why would I keep them on my feed. I don’t care what they are up to. I wish them the best in whatever they do in their life because we’re all trying to get through the madness. But simply put I do not need extra negativity in my life. Sometimes you just have to cut people off. It’s not my preference because I’d love to think that I can be friends with everyone and just because they have done something to hurt me in the past doesn’t mean they will do it again. But after a few downfalls, you realize the best thing to do is just LET IT GO (excuse me as I braid my hair so I can look like Elsa). Sometimes what you post is subconsciously to make certain people jealous or get a certain reaction or be in competition. Don’t do that. I’m going to focus on the things that I like and want to share with the world and I want to feel inspired by what other people share and be open to constructive criticism when it is needed. At the end of the day social media is a creative platform and it is not as important as we make it out to be. If it starts bringing you down or you spend too much time on it, take a break and chillll because it is really not a big deal or at least it shouldn’t be.

So in some ways its been a rough start to the new year. I have been almost in constant teary eyes and deep thought. I have had to say good bye to some things that I really did not want to. But you need to let go of the past, sometimes the good and the bad. For me, I wanted to hang on so badly but it wasn’t the wise thing to do. Thankful for the people who have reached out to me, encouraged me, listened to me, sent me Bible verses, and even cried with me. Still trying to figure out this season of my life and the encouragement has been much needed. But I don’t want a rough start to mean the rest of the year will be rough!

Sorry for all the sadness! I realized I am much more inspired when I am sad, is that weird? I can almost write easier when I have been impacted by something negative. But there have been positives in the new year too! I have gone on a beautiful hike, hung out with some friends, eaten bomb food, and enjoyed a spontaneous detour stop to watch the sunset at the downtown waterfront by my school with a friend. I also love my classes at school and the work that I get to do! And I am happy to stay busy because it helps me grow and be productive.

Here are the things that I look forward to for the new year:

  • Getting back into photography and creative projects. I used to really love taking pictures. My friends and I would plan so many different photo shoots. I still like taking pictures but I really want to get back into it. I want to turn madness in my life into beautiful art. I’m hoping to combine my love for words and writing with pictures. I’m not a professional and never will be by any means. I just like how taking pictures allows you to be creative and share a story. I love being surrounded by creative motivated people that inspire me.
  • Focus on healthy relationships. I struggle with the fact that I love being alone but sometimes feel lonely. Although I want to believe that I don’t need anyone else, I know that community is important. We weren’t meant to go through life alone. Hoping to stay away from destructive people but rather pursue healthy encouraging relationships. I’m also taking a communication class and love and relationships so I hope I’ll learn very useful things from that!
  • Travel! I’m planning a trip to different countries in Europe this summer and I am so hopeful that all will go well. My soul longs to travel. I’m hoping to go on a few more different local trips as well. I need to save that money though lol.
  • Be less sarcastic and more affectionate. Yeah I can braid my hair and look like Elsa but I really don’t need to have a cold heart.
  • Pursue God above all else. Above all else, I am happiest when I am walking with God and pursuing Him.
  • Be healthier. Yeah…I need to respect my own body and health and take better care of it because I love myself and you should love yourself too.
  • Don’t be a push over. I have been one in the past so now there is nothing else to do but be honest and stand up for injustice!

I can’t wait to look back in a year and see where my mind is and see how things change. Glad I started writing this blog honestly.

Thank you to everyone who has supported my writing. You don’t know how much it means to me! When people tell me they read my blog, it always surprises me! I can’t believe anyone would actually read it to be honest. I really enjoy writing and updating on my life and the lessons I have been learning. Each encouraging word pushes me to keep going. You don’t know how much anxiety rushes through me every time I’m about to post an article. I don’t know if I shared too much or was too vague or if it was written badly. I have 20 drafts of work I have never released so I am careful and indecisive sometimes. But when people connect with what I write, it fills my heart with happiness. So thank you if you are reading this.

When it comes down to it, this is what I want 2017 to be like: “No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” Philippians 3:14. I read this on my Bible app because I suddenly got a random craving to read the Bible as I was waiting in the car (and lets be honest, how often do cravings to read the Bible happen, for me not often and I have to be intentional in reading). When I read it, I knew it was God providing me to some comfort and direction.

Blessings,

Angie

So This is 20?

So this is what it means to grow up I guess.

Currently it is hell week and I’m trying to study for my finals and get all my assignments done so that I can finally enjoy my birthday and the Christmas season to it’s full potential. I am sitting here in disbelief. How did I get to be 20 years of age?! It feels like just yesterday I was 16 years old and feeling “so grown up” but now I have really grown up. I’m not even a teen. Wow wow wow. I have changed so much through the years (obviously) because growing up means not only going through puberty and hoping you get hotter. But it means your personality is shaped and your character. Hopefully all the negative and positive experiences, hurts, joys, uncomfortable situations, and decisions mold you into the adult you are supposed to be today. I’ve been trying to reflect on all the important moments that I have gone through as a child and teenager and what has impacted me the most.

If you’d like, lets go through just some of the most impactful moments together.

Shy and Quiet

Growing up, I was extremely shy and quiet. I was known for being shy and quiet which sucked. I would stick to a few friends that allowed me to come out of my shell. But in school, I was painfully shy. I remember going to youth services when I was probably around 12 years old. I loved going to these youth services, but it was TORTURE after. I had such bad social anxiety. What was I supposed to do when service was over? Everyone is going around saying hi and just the thought makes me so nervous. How do I muster up the courage to speak up when we gather in a service? In my school year books, people would often write something like, “Ur nice and kewl but quiet lol. HAGS!”. When someone would ask me why I’m so shy and quiet, I would shut down even more. That question felt like someone was stabbing me in the stomach with a knife. It hurt to be asked for some reason even though I was fully aware how shy I was. Well luckily things have gotten better. Sophomore year of High School, not ONE person wrote that I was shy or quiet. That was the last year of High School before I went to do college at running start. I don’t have abnormal social anxiety anymore. I love talking to people and being social. I’m studying communication in college. I think going through the struggle of being so shy and quiet helped me gain some valuable skills such as being a good listener. Now I have a voice and I’m definitely not afraid to use it.

Friendships

“Bad company corrupts good character.” How freaking true. I had to learn the hard way that not everyone has your back or the best intentions for you. You can’t place trust in people so easily because people will always unfortunately fail you at some point. You have to except that but also not let it keep you from building wonderful friendships. Luckily, a lot of the close friends that I have today are the ones that I had as a young child and I think that is awesome because we have been able to grow up together. The friendship only gets better and stronger. I personally don’t really agree with the concept of one best friend. I’m sure some people have one best friend and that works for them. But I have a few different friends that I consider to be my best friends. I really wanted to take a picture with all of them at my 20th birthday party but unfortunately they weren’t all there at the same time. Sometimes you are really close to someone because you are going through similar life situations and you can connect easier. Sometimes you drift away from someone because you are not really going through the same things in life as them anymore. But sometimes you will reconnect. I feel like friendships sometimes go in waves and that’s alright with me. The love and friendship is still always there regardless of how close you are. I have learned that you do not need to be friends with everyone. Sometimes its not meant to be. That’s fine. I’ve learned that friendship break ups are extremely hurtful and hard. I’ve learned that I really like to be alone and sometimes that doesn’t work out when you hide yourself in your room but your friends want to hang out. I’ve also learned the importance of who you keep in your close circle. There will be friends who will tell you to take up self destructive behavior when you’re upset about something and other friends who will tell you to pick up a Bible and pray. Which one will you listen to?

Heartbreak

What is worse, breaking someone’s heart or having your own heart broken? I’m still deciding. When I open up the wound of past heartbreak, I try not to focus so much on the boys involved but rather the man who helped me get through it. I realized from analyzing these two situations is how great of a man and father I have. The first time he saved the day was when he talked the boy out of harming himself because he was in love with me but I wasn’t in love with him. I’m so happy he stepped in because that could have ended a lot worse. Or the time that I came home just absolutely torn up, not expecting to tell my father anything but mom warned him when I got off the phone with her what had happened. I’ll never forget the look on his face when I walked past the living room and he called my name and wrapped me in his arms. He told me that eventually it would be all be alright. I remember how devastated I felt that day, that kind of pain you can never forget.  I can’t recall this memory without tearing up every time, its overwhelming. I’m not one to cry easily. But remembering my dad with the love and hurt in his eyes tears me up. It doesn’t matter to me anymore that I didn’t get the validation from some silly boy that I so desperately wanted in that moment. What hurts the most is seeing how hurt my father was because his daughter was no longer as happy as she was before. When you’re in pain, it doesn’t just effect you but it effects the people around you that actually genuinely love and care for you every time that you’re hurting. It effected my grandma when she noticed that her giggly and smiley Angie had no longer been smiling or giggling for a while. It effected my friends who were sick and tired of me moping around instead of enjoying the moment. But how can you enjoy the moment when you’re living on the memories of the past that will no longer be there. You feel like you will never be as happy again although deep down you know it’s really not a big deal and the sun will come out soon. I never wanted to feel this way again. Not so much so because I couldn’t handle the pain. Sure, pain creeps up like a thief and slowly steals the joy and happiness of every day life. But I was still living, waking up, going to school, and work (and still am). But oddly enough I feel like if I get heartbroken again it will hurt my family and friends more than me. So now I have to proceed with caution. My father models the love that Jesus Christ has for all his children which is one that is joyful with you in times of happiness and one that mourns with you in time of pain. I’m so glad that at 20 years of age the greatest lesson I could take from the heartbreak I have experienced is not that all boys are stupid and evil. Because I too have hurt people and caused pain for them. We make mistakes and we sometimes hurt but we grow stronger from that in time and learn to not do that again. Never lose faith in relationships because there are people who will love you and treat you in the way that you should be unconditionally, just like my father cares for me (both heavenly and earthly).

Faith

My faith has been challenged a lot as of recently. I grew up in a Christian family as a preacher’s kid so I was always the goody two shoes by default. But when I turned 18, that was when I had to decide on my own whether I truly believed in God and wanted to commit my life to Him by undergoing baptism. I never gave up on my faith but it was when I questioned it the most. I decided that I need to figure out on my own what I believe is right and wrong. I don’t want to believe something because I grew up believing it. I have to know truly in my heart. A lot of hard lessons came from this mindset. But I have always been the kind of person who learns by doing rather than just listening to someone else’s opinion. Through the hard trials, luckily my faith has grown so much. I know that I can’t do anything without God. My talents, my creativity, my thoughts, the love that I have inside is all from Him. It boggles my mind when I think of people who have absolutely no faith in God. Where does your hope and your trust come from? Because I have put my hope in people before and they stabbed me in the back. I’ve put hope into myself only to be the one who disappointed myself the most out of anyone else I have disappointed. I am learning to be more open with my faith in God. Not to “shove it down” people’s throats but I truly do want everyone to experience the hope that I have. Because even I had a time where I had no hope. My faith is not just a part of me but it transcends through everything I do and who I am as a person. I can have those conversations openly with God when I’m driving in the car alone. I can feel His presence. He is so good at answering my prayers. Prayer is so so so important to me and I encourage everyone to always pray and ask people to pray for you because it is the most powerful thing you can do. Do I still make mistakes and sin? Yes. Do I still have a lot of growing to do and changing? Yes. As my relationship with Christ grows stronger, so will I change as a person. I’m so blessed to serve in youth ministry as a leader, to sing in worship, work for not one but TWO Christian organizations now, and attend a Christian University. I’m spoiled. People say that Christians are messed up people. We are! ha. But also it is a joy to spend time with like-minded people because there is no one I’d rather be around than someone who GENUINELY has Jesus living inside of them.

Music

My parents made me start singing on stage at church when I was probably about 4 or 5 years old. My grandma would always teach me songs as a child and encourage me to sing. She was the only one besides me in the family that really cared for music. Music has been a life long passion of mine. I grew up in so many different choirs, worship groups, and singing ensembles. I would sing at almost every holiday church service and get the solos at school recitals. It really helped me get out of my shell as I got more comfortable with being on stage. I joined band in middle school and played the clarinet and alto saxophone. Music truly does fill the sentences of where you have no words to speak. It feels euphoric when I harmonize perfectly with someone else. I’m so thankful for music and that I can continue with my passion for music by leading worship at church. I also work for a radio station now doing promotions and it’s awesome getting to know behind the scenes of the music industry a little bit. I will always be involved with music in some way because I don’t think I would be able to breathe without it.

Family

I love my family so much. I have four older siblings (and two are married) who have always acted as extra sets of parents in my life. They have helped me in making major life decisions and they sometimes give good advice. Sometimes they make fun of me or annoy me but I still love them. My sister encouraged me to start this blog and I’m so thankful because its teaching me to open up and be real with how I feel. I love my four nephews that are all currently under five and give the best hugs and kisses and make my heart soar with love and joy when they are around with their antics. I have so much respect for my parents. Honestly, they are pretty much right about everything. They will analyze a social situation and they can tell me which friends are not genuine, which guys are into me, and so on. I used to not believe them but so far they have always been right! How is that possible. They pray for me and tell me I’m beautiful and uplift me constantly. My two grandma’s have also had a huge role in raising me. I’m so thankful for my family even though I have been an annoying teen who didn’t put a lot of time to spend with them and am never home. I’m glad they still are there for me. They push me a lot. But because they have encouraged me to be the best possible version of myself and work hard, I am grateful. They never held me down for being young or being a woman. I’m a pretty independent person because of them and I like it.

Culture

My parents are immigrants from Ukraine. Because of that, I feel like I grew up with a different perspective on life than some of my classmates whose parents grew up in the US.  I remember having to help my parents with their English and trying to help them understand some of the American culture. My world was a lot different than theirs growing up. Our Ukrainian traditional values were a lot different than the American culture and values. It’s always been interesting to try to mix the two together. But I’m really happy that I could build friendships in the Ukrainian community and also build friendships with people with different cultural backgrounds at school. I noticed that it’s sometimes easier to connect with someone who is a first generation child, regardless of their cultural/ethnic background. We understand some of the struggles and values that are similar. There is just something different in the way that we grew up and somehow we can understand one another. One big difference was that I was never allowed to celebrate Halloween growing up and in church we would have to wear head coverings. In Ukraine, being a Christian was harder and stricter because they faced religious persecution and you really had to stick to your beliefs and be separated from the world. I didn’t grow up believing in Santa Claus or the tooth fairy but my nephews will. In my culture, getting married young is very common and encouraged. Whereas in America it’s encouraged to finish school and focus on getting a career before pursuing marriage. I didn’t get allowance for doing my chores as a child, it was expected to clean and respect the home I live in without getting any money for it.  It’s really just a difference in perspective and what each culture values. Hopefully this summer I will be able to finally visit Ukraine and have a better perspective of the country and it’s values that shaped my childhood and who I am as a person. I love America and I love Ukraine. I love that I get to meet so many different people and all the different cultures that I get to experience here in America!

Changing

I have been working on myself to be better. Trying to forgive not only others but myself for the mistakes I made. I remember sitting in a tea bar with my friends over the summer, opening up about my feelings. And they pointed out that although I forgave everyone, I was still unable to forgive myself. God gives us grace and we need to give ourselves grace as well.  Be happy with what life gives and to be patient in waiting for the things that I want. I’m becoming more strong and confident in myself so that when conflict arises, I can face it and not run away. There is so much life to live and so much more lessons to learn. Being twenty does feel different because I’m not a teenager anymore. But at the same time I am still young. I have some mistakes, trials, highlights, and adventures to come my way. I’m trying to figure out how much is oversharing and how much I need to share to help other people. I look forward to the new year.

So who is Angela today? A girl who loves to laugh and spend time with people and really get to know them on a personal level. Someone who is obsessed with cats and coffee. A huge fan of poetry and taking aesthetically appealing photos. Someone who needs naps during the day to survive and who likes to spend time alone a lot more than going out sometimes. Someone who is working on being less sarcastic because it often comes off rude, trying to be more affectionate, and to be honest with how I’m feeling in the moment. A girl who loves to go hiking and go on walks out in nature. A girl who will harmonize to every song that plays in the car. Someone who is always full of ideas and trying to do a million things at once. Someone that is a lot different than the girl she used to be.

One of my friends, Anna, wrote in my card that she believes twenty will be a big year for me. I hope so.

Blessings,

Angie ❤

If you read to the end I’m proud! haha.

 

 

Joy in Every Day Life

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“May the God of hope fill you with all the joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit” Romans 15:13

Where does your joy ultimately come from? I think we often times get the meaning of joy and happiness confused. Happiness comes when something is fulfilled or brings us gratification and pleasure. Like all emotions, happiness is fleeting and temporary. It’s based on how we’re feeling in that moment and based around our circumstances and thoughts. But never ending joy comes from God. Nothing in our life is constant or forever reliable except for the truth of God. I find joy that no matter what I’ve done or what I will do in the future I am still enough, I’m still loved, and I am still saved. There is nothing that will change that.

When I was in Middle School I started going to a girl’s cadre group. We would meet once a week at Starbucks or someone’s house and we had an older leader provide insight on some spiritual life advice- I guess you could call it. A few weeks ago I was organizing my things and came across an old journal. It was an old journal that I used in those cadre groups to take notes. Even though that group quickly fell apart, there was one lesson that stuck in my heart forever. And I looked back on those notes about joy and happiness. It took me a long time to really understand what it meant to be constantly joyful even when I was feeling inadequate or depressed inside.

Let me just say that whoever is close to me knows that 2015 was NOT my year. I mean a few good things came out of it, I did get baptized not only by water but also by the Holy Spirit. My best friend got married and I got to be a part of the wedding (super cute wedding btw), and I also graduated High School. But in all honestly that whole year pretty much was empty. Or the way I felt inside, well there was not much joy to be found. And I don’t feel like getting into that necessarily right now. But I am happy to say that I feel a billion times better and more positive this 2016 new year.

Joy vs Happiness

So coming out of a slump of a year. Not knowing who I really was. Letting myself be confined to a small box and not really living. Trying to live up to other people’s standards rather than my own or shall I say God’s. I wasn’t getting anywhere. God really put it on my heart to start thinking about where does my joy come from?

I promise you that if you put your joy solely in other people, your heart will get heartbroken. If you rely on your happiness to come from your circumstances, a dark storm will come at some point and you will be left shattered. If you follow what the world says to do in order to be happy, well it will feel good for a little while. That’s why we chase pleasure and instant gratification. But eventually those things will leave you feeling empty.

So I decided to constantly choose joy in every day life. Every day I choose to focus on becoming a better human being, to see the happiness in little things, and constantly remind myself how blessed I am. Even when I have a bad day, even when everything that could go wrong does, even when I’m incredibly hurt, even when I’m insecure, even when I’m torn apart, even when I don’t have money for coffee (jokes..but for real though!), at the end of the day I am still joyful. At the end of the day it doesn’t matter. Just as every storm in the past has gone away, so will this one eventually! And even though this life is hard and the world is cold, God still loves me so much. He still thinks I am worthy to be saved. And he is complete love and truth.

Happiness is an emotion that feels pretty darn good! I’m happy that we are not necessarily happy all the time. If that even makes sense…you see happiness is like a little extra spark or boost. When I drink a yummy cup of coffee, I’m happy. When a boy is nice to me, I’m really happy. When I am laughing my tummy off, I am utterly happy! When something wonderful and surprising happens, well then I’m extra happy! Those little boosts are awesome and what make life worth while and interesting. But happiness comes and goes just as the rest of all the emotions that a human being experiences.

I can’t pretend that I am constantly smiling or upbeat all day long. I am a human as I said before. And I have emotions! In fact I took a personality test in my Interpersonal Communications class which classifies me as an ENFJ personality type. F is for feelings! And that’s me, I feel it all and I think about it all day long. Are you sad? I’m sad? Are you happy? I’m happy. Basically. Some days I am too tired to wake up. Sometimes I feel deeply hurt by a betrayal of another person. Life is hard and it doesn’t get any easier just by being a Christian. But I have come to accept that life is hard but also beautiful because of Christ. So those days, weeks, maybe even years that I feel inadequate inside, I let myself feel my emotions and realize that I have a right to them. But I do not let myself be controlled by emotions that are as fleeting as the wind. And I don’t let myself be utterly consumed by them to the point they control my life in a negative way. I cry it out, I sing it out, I talk it out, I drink a good cup of coffee, and most importantly I pray it out!! And I know that I am okay, and I am joyful.

This life is short. But God’s love is eternal, his grace is overflowing, and living in Paradise with him trumps over anything in this life. I choose joy in this. I hope you do too.

Blessings,

Angie ❤

 

 

Why I Call You Beautiful

 

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“She is closed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future” Proverbs 31:25

Let me tell you the reasons why I love to call you beautiful. I believe this word is underrated and is not used enough although I personally probably overuse it. You see each and every person was created and molded into a unique human being. I like the word beautiful because it does not only reflect your outside looks but is the encompassing word that describes every ounce of yourself from inside to the outside.

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I remember sitting in my Christian Thought lecture class in University and hearing the professor talk about “Imago Dei” and what it means. Imago Dei means literally the image of God. Many people know of the verse found in Genesis 1:27 that says “So God created mankind in his own image, in the image God he created them, male and female he created them.” I too have read this verse many times without much thought of what it means. I just had the approach of “oh that’s cool we all look like God in some weird sense even though humans come in all different shapes, sizes, colors, ethnicities, and looks” type of deal. But as my professor pointed out in this lecture, it’s not of our looks that necessarily makes us created in the image of God but rather our CHARACTER. We were made in God’s likeness. We know that God is all loving, merciful, forgiving, wonderful, wise, and all things good, the list goes on and on. And the most beautiful part of it all is that we were made in His image.

So what does that mean for us? It means that even when the world says we’re ugly, we’re not good enough, we need to change ourselves in every way possible in order to be loved and accepted by others, we are actually beautiful without all that stuff. Now I’ll admit some days I feel more beautiful than others. Some days I spend extra care to do my makeup just right and put together a cute outfit. I enjoy this very much. Some days I see every flaw in the mirror  magnified by 100%. And inside I can also feel crappy because I didn’t meet mine or someone else’s expectations. I did something wrong and now I feel guilty and stupid so it also carries onto my face. I’m a human with emotions, mistakes, and living life just learning day by day. But none of this defines my beauty. My beauty is found in the fact that the most creative Being in the world who is God decided to create me in a unique and special manner. Giving me a character created in his image.

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The good news is that each and every human being was created by God in His image and is loved deeper than we could ever fathom in this lifetime.

So when I started to send my youth update texts to our church members by starting most of my messages with “Hello beautiful people! Yadda yadda yadda..” I originally wanted to be unique, cute, and funny in my manner. To bring people a little giggle even if it was met with rolled eyes. But after reflecting on the lecture of Imago Dei, I realized the real reason why I loved to say beautiful all the time. I believed that the people I was sending this to were beautiful inside and out.

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This is where I am even feeling that I am getting a bit too cheesy and I’m not a huge fan of cheese (;. But we live in a world where we are bombarded with images and advertisements all the time. We are constantly getting ambushed with promises to be more attractive if we just did this new diet and exercise, wore this clothing, tried this new product. That’s all fine and dandy but we shouldn’t be utterly consumed by this. Because guess what, by the world’s standard’s we will NEVER be beautiful enough. But by God’s standard’s we were already made in his image and we are accepted and enough.

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I want to conclude by saying that I love makeup, fashion, and shopping. I like to change my look around a lot too. I enjoy it and there is nothing wrong with that. But I have to remind myself that while I am working on my outside appearance I also need to work on my heart. Because when my heart is beautiful and loving then the rest of good flows out too. And when I have a loving heart and love others just as Jesus loved me, well now that’s really beautiful.

Blessings,

Angie