Hello beautiful people!
I hope this new year has been treating you well. I started a new job on the first day of the new year and the best part is that I didn’t have to even work on January first! Because it was a holiday, I still got paid! Now I’m not talking about one of those lame high school jobs you get because your parents force you to get one. And not one of those college jobs you get so you can pay for gas and coffee and occasionally hang out until you’re broke af again before your next paycheck. This is a REAL job. Yes, #adulting. Scratch that, real adults don’t actually say #adulting. But yes, I did get a real job. One that is starting me off on my lifelong career. Every time I say the word “career” or think of the word in my head, I can hear my high school teachers saying, “this is your high school career, you need to take it seriously!” Ha, thank God those days are over.
But on a more serious note, I am thankful for God that I got a job right after college for a position that I wanted. If you’re not Christian and you’re reading this, I just want to say that if I have any confidence, its not my own. My confidence is in God. There is such a power in trusting God and speaking into existence what you want to happen. God has my back better than any other person! He wants better for me than I even want for myself.
Trying to get adjusted to working full time has been quite the experience. First off, I’m not a morning person so trying to wake up at 6 AM everyday has been a struggle. But I cant wait until the day that I actually become a graceful morning person because I want to be one so bad! I’m also putting into practice what I have been learning in school for the past 2-4 years into my real life, woohoo. But the classroom could never fully prepare me for what I would be doing outside of school until I started working. Especially with communication, there was no real way of knowing what I would be doing after college. Some people go on to work in marketing, others become journalists, business owners, broadcasters, social media coordinators, graphic designers, or something totally random like being a potato farmer. Basically, communication is a very broad degree. The real life application can be a lot different than what you were learning in school.
I feel like a butterfly who is about to spread her wings! Being in college was like being in a cocoon. I was preparing to become a butterfly in the real world. I loved being in my comfortable cocoon without too many worries. Now I’m at my job and trying to break free of my cocoon. Some days I feel on top of the world and think to myself, I got this! Other days I feel like uh oh…what am I doing? Can I really conquer at this job? Am I really the person who should be in this position? Well, soon this butterfly is fully going to spread her wings and fly! I’m almost there. I have to keep believing, even when it gets tough! I keep reminding myself that people end up working in one place for years upon years of their life. Eventually you will become an expert at your job. Right now I’m learning, and growing, and sometimes growing leaves growing pains. But how can you know how far you’ve grown and changed without those growing pains?
A part of me misses school. A carefree time where I worried about boys and how I was going to finish my essays and group projects without losing my sanity. But now I have to worry about my job, providing for my future, not missing my bedtime, and signing up for the gym so I don’t start gaining excess weight from sitting at a desk. But each season in life is so important to your story and important to be present and given your full attention! Now I don’t have to pay to learn, but I get paid for going to work where I learn so much! Honestly, I love my job. It’s fun, it’s creative, and it’s a blessing. I will do my best to be my best while I am in this season!
Since a huge portion of my job is writing, I feel that it is important to keep up with my personal blog. It will help me learn how to be transparent and creative through my writing and it will help my skills continue to grow. I may have put writing on this blog on the back burner for a long time, but I remember when it was such an important outlet to get my frustration out and creative ideas flowing in the past. It’s not always easy for me to open up in person or speak up. Sometimes it feels like my mouth is super glued shut or I don’t have the confidence to say what I am really thinking, but writing allows me to express myself. Keeping up in this blog will not only help me for my own personal growth and enjoyment, but it will help me develop my skills further that will help me with my job! Killing two birds with one stone as they say.
On a side note, I also started a dream journal because I have the most vivid weird dreams. Sometimes they come true so I figured it would be a good time to start writing them down and keep track of them. I also have an essential oil diffuser in my room and I love going to sleep with it, its amazing. Highly recommend!
I am going to bed now. I am working on becoming more positive and trying to figure out how to go through all the changes in my life currently with grace and peace instead of anxiety and stress.
I want to leave you with a quote that my coworker read to me the other day, “God loves you too much to answer your prayers when you want them to instead of the perfect timing.” I know that I butchered the quote but it basically was something along those lines and I love it. What a perfect reminder!
You’ll be seeing me around more hopefully with my posts. I write because it helps me in more ways than one but I truly hope that my writing is not all for vain. Maybe it will inspire you to think of something outside of the box or perhaps just flash a smile.