Please Ban People From Saying #Adulting

Hello beautiful people!

I hope this new year has been treating you well. I started a new job on the first day of the new year and the best part is that I didn’t have to even work on January first! Because it was a holiday, I still got paid! Now I’m not talking about one of those lame high school jobs you get because your parents force you to get one. And not one of those college jobs you get so you can pay for gas and coffee and occasionally hang out until you’re broke af again before your next paycheck. This is a REAL job. Yes, #adulting. Scratch that, real adults don’t actually say #adulting. But yes, I did get a real job. One that is starting me off on my lifelong career. Every time I say the word “career” or think of the word in my head, I can hear my high school teachers saying, “this is your high school career, you need to take it seriously!” Ha, thank God those days are over.

But on a more serious note, I am thankful for God that I got a job right after college for a position that I wanted. If you’re not Christian and you’re reading this, I just want to say that if I have any confidence, its not my own. My confidence is in God. There is such a power in trusting God and speaking into existence what you want to happen. God has my back better than any other person! He wants better for me than I even want for myself.

Trying to get adjusted to working full time has been quite the experience. First off, I’m not a morning person so trying to wake up at 6 AM everyday has been a struggle. But I cant wait until the day that I actually become a graceful morning person because I want to be one so bad! I’m also putting into practice what I have been learning in school for the past 2-4 years into my real life, woohoo. But the classroom could never fully prepare me for what I would be doing outside of school until I started working. Especially with communication, there was no real way of knowing what I would be doing after college. Some people go on to work in marketing, others become journalists, business owners, broadcasters, social media coordinators, graphic designers, or something totally random like being a potato farmer. Basically, communication is a very broad degree. The real life application can be a lot different than what you were learning in school.

I feel like a butterfly who is about to spread her wings! Being in college was like being in a cocoon. I was preparing to become a butterfly in the real world. I loved being in my comfortable cocoon without too many worries. Now I’m at my job and trying to break free of my cocoon. Some days I feel on top of the world and think to myself, I got this! Other days I feel like uh oh…what am I doing? Can I really conquer at this job? Am I really the person who should be in this position? Well, soon this butterfly is fully going to spread her wings and fly! I’m almost there. I have to keep believing, even when it gets tough! I keep reminding myself that people end up working in one place for years upon years of their life. Eventually you will become an expert at your job. Right now I’m learning, and growing, and sometimes growing leaves growing pains. But how can you know how far you’ve grown and changed without those growing pains?

A part of me misses school. A carefree time where I worried about boys and how I was going to finish my essays and group projects without losing my sanity. But now I have to worry about my job, providing for my future, not missing my bedtime, and signing up for the gym so I don’t start gaining excess weight from sitting at a desk. But each season in life is so important to your story and important to be present and given your full attention! Now I don’t have to pay to learn, but I get paid for going to work where I learn so much! Honestly, I love my job. It’s fun, it’s creative, and it’s a blessing. I will do my best to be my best while I am in this season!

Since a huge portion of my job is writing, I feel that it is important to keep up with my personal blog. It will help me learn how to be transparent and creative through my writing and it will help my skills continue to grow. I may have put writing on this blog on the back burner for a long time, but I remember when it was such an important outlet to get my frustration out and creative ideas flowing in the past. It’s not always easy for me to open up in person or speak up. Sometimes it feels like my mouth is super glued shut or I don’t have the confidence to say what I am really thinking, but writing allows me to express myself. Keeping up in this blog will not only help me for my own personal growth and enjoyment, but it will help me develop my skills further that will help me with my job! Killing two birds with one stone as they say.

On a side note, I also started a dream journal because I have the most vivid weird dreams. Sometimes they come true so I figured it would be a good time to start writing them down and keep track of them. I also have an essential oil diffuser in my room and I love going to sleep with it, its amazing. Highly recommend!

I am going to bed now. I am working on becoming more positive and trying to figure out how to go through all the changes in my life currently with grace and peace instead of anxiety and stress.

I want to leave you with a quote that my coworker read to me the other day, “God loves you too much to answer your prayers when you want them to instead of the perfect timing.” I know that I butchered the quote but it basically was something along those lines and I love it. What a perfect reminder!

You’ll be seeing me around more hopefully with my posts. I write because it helps me in more ways than one but I truly hope that my writing is not all for vain. Maybe it will inspire you to think of something outside of the box or perhaps just flash a smile.

Love,

Angie

 

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Rough Start

Hasn’t been even a full two weeks into the new year and I have already deleted or blocked 4 people on social media, jeez.

Hello beautiful people!

Happy new year! I am so late in writing this article. I had hoped to write this at the true beginning of the year but getting readjusted to school and work has been tough and overwhelming. I write myself a bunch of to-do lists but I still manage to forget to do two things a day and only remember when I’m finally laying in bed. I write notes on my phone and in my school journals but I definitely need to get more organized.I have also had this ongoing headache which I do not know why so I’m trying to drink more water. Jeez, could I complain anymore? I apologize. I hope your new year is going well!

Obviously, we know that just because its a new year doesn’t mean that all of a sudden you need to completely change as a person or whatever. You can start making positive changes whenever! But there is still something great about a fresh new year where you can reflect on the past year and then analyze what you want to work on and set some goals!

You might be wondering why I had to delete people from social media and you may think its petty. But why have someone there looking at your life and what you’re doing if they don’t support you? You should have people that support your life and your work. Social media is an extension of you as a person whether you want it to be or not. If someone is disrespectful to you in real life and cannot be trusted then you don’t need that negativity in “real life” or online. Also, I don’t need to see posts of people that will bring me down. Why would I keep them on my feed. I don’t care what they are up to. I wish them the best in whatever they do in their life because we’re all trying to get through the madness. But simply put I do not need extra negativity in my life. Sometimes you just have to cut people off. It’s not my preference because I’d love to think that I can be friends with everyone and just because they have done something to hurt me in the past doesn’t mean they will do it again. But after a few downfalls, you realize the best thing to do is just LET IT GO (excuse me as I braid my hair so I can look like Elsa). Sometimes what you post is subconsciously to make certain people jealous or get a certain reaction or be in competition. Don’t do that. I’m going to focus on the things that I like and want to share with the world and I want to feel inspired by what other people share and be open to constructive criticism when it is needed. At the end of the day social media is a creative platform and it is not as important as we make it out to be. If it starts bringing you down or you spend too much time on it, take a break and chillll because it is really not a big deal or at least it shouldn’t be.

So in some ways its been a rough start to the new year. I have been almost in constant teary eyes and deep thought. I have had to say good bye to some things that I really did not want to. But you need to let go of the past, sometimes the good and the bad. For me, I wanted to hang on so badly but it wasn’t the wise thing to do. Thankful for the people who have reached out to me, encouraged me, listened to me, sent me Bible verses, and even cried with me. Still trying to figure out this season of my life and the encouragement has been much needed. But I don’t want a rough start to mean the rest of the year will be rough!

Sorry for all the sadness! I realized I am much more inspired when I am sad, is that weird? I can almost write easier when I have been impacted by something negative. But there have been positives in the new year too! I have gone on a beautiful hike, hung out with some friends, eaten bomb food, and enjoyed a spontaneous detour stop to watch the sunset at the downtown waterfront by my school with a friend. I also love my classes at school and the work that I get to do! And I am happy to stay busy because it helps me grow and be productive.

Here are the things that I look forward to for the new year:

  • Getting back into photography and creative projects. I used to really love taking pictures. My friends and I would plan so many different photo shoots. I still like taking pictures but I really want to get back into it. I want to turn madness in my life into beautiful art. I’m hoping to combine my love for words and writing with pictures. I’m not a professional and never will be by any means. I just like how taking pictures allows you to be creative and share a story. I love being surrounded by creative motivated people that inspire me.
  • Focus on healthy relationships. I struggle with the fact that I love being alone but sometimes feel lonely. Although I want to believe that I don’t need anyone else, I know that community is important. We weren’t meant to go through life alone. Hoping to stay away from destructive people but rather pursue healthy encouraging relationships. I’m also taking a communication class and love and relationships so I hope I’ll learn very useful things from that!
  • Travel! I’m planning a trip to different countries in Europe this summer and I am so hopeful that all will go well. My soul longs to travel. I’m hoping to go on a few more different local trips as well. I need to save that money though lol.
  • Be less sarcastic and more affectionate. Yeah I can braid my hair and look like Elsa but I really don’t need to have a cold heart.
  • Pursue God above all else. Above all else, I am happiest when I am walking with God and pursuing Him.
  • Be healthier. Yeah…I need to respect my own body and health and take better care of it because I love myself and you should love yourself too.
  • Don’t be a push over. I have been one in the past so now there is nothing else to do but be honest and stand up for injustice!

I can’t wait to look back in a year and see where my mind is and see how things change. Glad I started writing this blog honestly.

Thank you to everyone who has supported my writing. You don’t know how much it means to me! When people tell me they read my blog, it always surprises me! I can’t believe anyone would actually read it to be honest. I really enjoy writing and updating on my life and the lessons I have been learning. Each encouraging word pushes me to keep going. You don’t know how much anxiety rushes through me every time I’m about to post an article. I don’t know if I shared too much or was too vague or if it was written badly. I have 20 drafts of work I have never released so I am careful and indecisive sometimes. But when people connect with what I write, it fills my heart with happiness. So thank you if you are reading this.

When it comes down to it, this is what I want 2017 to be like: “No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” Philippians 3:14. I read this on my Bible app because I suddenly got a random craving to read the Bible as I was waiting in the car (and lets be honest, how often do cravings to read the Bible happen, for me not often and I have to be intentional in reading). When I read it, I knew it was God providing me to some comfort and direction.

Blessings,

Angie